In our blog, you’ll find information about metaphysics and spirituality from Lazaris and Jach, excerpts from Lazaris recordings and interviews, and travelogues from Jach’s adventures around the world.
I continue to learn Spanish, and I am getting better at saying what I want to say. Though it goes slowly, I can communicate one to one fairly well. But it’s still amazingly difficult to actively participate in a lively conversation with a group of Colombians. They talk so fast and with great vitality. The emotional intensity is both beautiful and frightening. What sounds like an alarming conversation could well be about how to properly prepare empanadas or how to make the sauce to accompany them. Adding to the mystery, they speak with their own traditional and personal idioms. Well, I could go on, but suffice it say, it’s difficult and I’m learning.
When Enrique and I go to one of the frequent gatherings of family or friends, I begin by welcoming and being welcomed and by following through with basic, somewhat elementary, conversations, and then I slip into watching mode. I surprise myself with how much I learn from gestures and tones and facial expressions.
I am interacting more and more; I am part of the gatherings now rather than just an outside observer. Even so, I still spend a lot of time listening and watching. I spend a lot of time only being, being in the moment.
At these events, I have discovered something else. I have become enchanted with trees. Now trees are everywhere, but here in Colombia, in the countryside and in the mountains and in the flatlands, they are not only abundant, they are gracious. There are trees that I’ve never seen anywhere else in the world. I marvel at the stately beauty of Carbonero trees. They lift to the sky and open there delicate branches to create an expansive canopy as if offering to embrace the heavens. The gracious Ceiba trees have a more substantial trunk and sturdier branches but they offer a no less massive and expansive canopy. I stop. I scare. I marvel at their beauty and the sense of tranquility and peace that they inspire.
At a party, once I’ve exhausted my range of conversation, and once others have returned to their natural rhythm of talking, I watch, I listen, and then I turn to listen and to talk to the trees.
Here are a few of the trees I’ve known.
There is such an elegance to this beauty. She is wild and wonderful and yet so willing to just be. Out of balance, twisted in a chaotic way, and yet at peace as she stands in a peculiarly perfect balance of self-acceptance and grace. She asked me to pause and to be still.
We had just returned from a 4 hour horse ride called a Cabalgata. This was the traditional Christmas Cabalgata organized by two of Enrique’s cousins. Part of the tradition: drink plenty of Aguardente and share plenty of it with others. Part of the tradition: celebrate the joy of life, joke with each other, laugh and shout a lot. Part of the tradition: after the ride gather at the finca (farm) for a hearty meal and more talk. I was sitting among the chatter of maybe 80 people, young and old, mostly young. Excited. Laughing. Not at all exhausted, stories were flying: While riding in the river, Julian’s saddle had come loose and it and he had fallen into water. His horse, spooked, had run off. That’s one of the stories I heard.
New mothers among the group were dealing with their tired first borns, and the new grandmothers were busy overseeing and trying not to interfere.
I turned to this tree and got lost in the sunset and the reverie of the moment. I am living a life so different from anything I might have imagined. I’ve held it that all this is a result of a huge change in my life with Peny’s and Michaell’s deaths and with my decision to love again, and there is merit there. But as I sat with this tree I realized that those big events opened the door and created the space, but all this is a result of a whole bunch of little choices and decisions that began before those pivotal changes and continued long after them. Twists and turns. Out of balance and in chaos and reaching in this direct and that, I kept coming back to accepting myself in the moments. In the moment, such a simple phrase, almost a cliche, but oh so mystical and powerful. As I sat and listened, life is plump and juicy, and it’s plump and rich in Colombia.
I stood with humility and respect before this grand Ancient One. I didn’t speak; I didn’t dare.There is such majesty, something almost regal that feels like wisdom and that demands respect without demanding it. This is a silent sentinel of remembering. It calls you to remember who you are. I heard its call. I listened. Remembering is a powerful, often forgotten, way of encountering and embracing the future. Remembering is not about recalling the past, it’s not about reminiscing about things that were. Though these may be steps that get you there. Remembering is about uncovering truths tucked in the creases of the past, and honoring them. It’s about awakening the secrets of your traditions and your myths that lie dormant in the recesses of your past. Remembering unlocks resonance that is fodder and fuel of Resonance Magic, the fulcrum of all magics. As we branch out and reach for what will be, remembering who we are can lift us and guide us. It’s magic. Remember that.
I just wanted to be in the presence of this amazing consciousness. I didn’t want to sit. I just wanted to stand there and listen to its voice that spoke to me without words.
Behold: There are energies and forces in this Universe that are mightier than I can comprehend. I was learning to embrace that as I stood with this master.
This is the first of the trees that I’ve known. I sat with it, mesmerized, for a little more than an hour. I couldn’t look away. It held me. It wouldn’t let go. I didn’t want it to let go.
I was at a family gathering on December 7. It was the annual celebration of Velitas (little candles). It is the celebration honoring the day of conception — the day Mary conceived the Son of God. Maybe it’s a religious celebration to some, but to most, it’s a time to light hundreds of little candles and to have a party, large or small. This one was large. There were 70 people ranging in age from 4 months to 80 years. Around 2:00 that afternoon, the preparations began to create a huge Paella. Big enough to feed 70 people. A huge Paella pan, an open fire, and the preparation dance — a dance of love — began with various types of rice. At the appropriate times the initial preparations of chicken and beef and then of shrimp and clams and muscles would become a part of the dance. Vegetables would be prepared and set aside for later. Lobster and octopus and squid would join the dance. The precision was impeccable. The artisans were part of the dance, as important as the ingredients. Finally the Paella would be covered and the final steps to this dance happened beyond conscious view. Mystery. Magic.
People began arriving just after dark. It was nearly 10:00 when the Paella was served. The waiting was also part of the dance and a part of the magic. During that interim, conversations flourished and the volume continually rose, crescendoed, and fell back only to rise again. After my range of conversation was complete, I closed my eyes and just listened to the cacophony that became symphony. Timeless. Vibrant. Beautiful.
After the Paella the party and the conversations gained volume and intensity, and I slipped away to revel in the joy and love of family. The beauty of their love and enthusiasm touched my soul, and my soul called me to be still. Watch. Listen. I stepped away. The toddlers were herded by their young mothers and cradled by their grandmothers. The oldest among the group sat together in rockers watching and creating their own music. Worlds flowed together and found a harmony and everyone danced into the evening. The dance of love.
I looked at this Ancient One and goose bumps rippled across my entire body. The small hairs stood. This photograph doesn’t capture its elegance and grace. It doesn’t capture the massive expand of its branches. There is a bounty here that defies description. There really aren’t words. For me it was a transcendent moment. That’s all I can say and that’s all that I care to say about it.
All right. All right. Well, well, oh my, yes. Certainly so. Whenever we conduct a workshop, we begin by listening and by watching. At workshops, with your permission, we begin by touching – by touching that vulnerable and tender part of you that, in turn, always touches us so deeply. We touch that part that shimmers – that part so fragile and so powerful – so profoundly powerful – somewhere deep inside you.
That part of you that we touch and that touches us, in many ways, is the you who always loves – it’s the you we call the Truer Self. As you read these words, we will work with you so that you might touch – so that you can be touched – by that part, by that Truer Self as well.
Your journey with its few and many paths has taken many twists and turns. You have known struggle and suffering. You have known fear and pain – more fear and pain than was ever meant to be. You have known failure and sorrow and the silence of shame and despair.
And through it all, you love, you continue to seek and search for love. You have also known the power and wonder of celebration and triumph. And still you love even more. You do not settle or become complacent. You continue to seek and search for love – for more love.
You are amazing; you are astounding. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how good it becomes, you always seek and search for love. No matter how obscured, encumbered, or entangled your quest becomes, it never ends. No matter how lost you appear to be, you keep searching to be found.
It is your nature; it is your grace. Seeking more love comes to you as flight to an eagle. It is your dignity and your presence.
Amid this never-ending search for love, there is another search. We would suggest that while more love is your goal, you are also seeking your Truer Self. And as you seek both – more love and your Truer Self – there are so many wonders waiting for you.
So many wonders ...
1. You can create and manifest so much more of what you want, and you can fulfill so much more of your dreams and visions. You can touch and be touched by more of your magic, by more of your passion, and by more of your creativity. The peace, the self-acceptance, the more healing and the more loving can be yours.
2. A new sense of compassion and dominion can be yours. You can metaphorically walk with the elements, creating positive futures in the world that can become friendlier and more encouraging. You can give without guilt – beyond guilt – and you can love without fear – beyond fear.
3. Greater freedom to be and to become, the freedom to supersede and to surpass, with its possibilities and its capacities, can be within your grasp.
4. As you search for more love and seek your Truer Self, you can challenge the limits of your beliefs and imagination and the constraints of your trust and love. You can be wise. You can know. And in many ways, you can become your Truer Self and the beneficiary of the more love you always seek.
You are ready ...
That you are reading these words suggests that you are ready. We would suggest, your Higher Self is ready to link and connect you to your Truer Self. Your Truer Self is ready to be found.
Your world is waiting. As we have often said, "Nothing changes until you do." The world is evolving, and your conscious and active participation is an integral part of the evolution. The positive futures, rather than the "nightmares" and "mediocrities," are coming. It is your conscious creation and midwifery that will make it so.
Your spirituality calls you to the challenge. You are at a crossroads. Your future is waiting with so much abundance and bounty – happiness and success. In so many ways, we would suggest, seeking your Truer Self is the next step in your quest for love. With new ways of changing and new ways of growing, you must have known that there would be new ways of loving.
The Great Work and the Great Adventure are your work and adventure. In this sensing, these are yours to unfold with more of your magic and with the miracles of your Truer Self. With your Truer Self, the Great Work leading to the Great Adventure can become the Grand Adventure.
We hear you ...
We hear you. "It's too much. I am not enough. I cannot do all that; I cannot do it alone."
You are not alone. There is help. We would suggest, we are here to help you. Your Higher Self and Soul are always with you to help you and to assure you with their love and caring. Each is ready to help you come face to face with your Truer Self.
Your spirit, so filled with the breath of life and the inspiration-aspiration to live life more full and rich, is aligned with your Higher Self and Soul.
As we have said, your Truer Self is waiting to be discovered. And of course, God/Goddess/All That Is is always there for you and is always ready to love you.
You are not alone. You are loved more than you can know.
The nature of your Truer Self ...
Dreamer and Visionary: We would suggest, the Truer Self in you is always reaching for the future, the possible, the luminous – that which is filled with Light – and the numinous – that which is filled with the Divine. This august part of you is always reaching for the Unknown and the unfathomable.
Your Truer Self uses their raw materials and tools of creation with a focus on the future. In this sensing, your Truer Self accesses their beliefs and attitudes, their thoughts and feelings, and their decisions and choices with an emphasis on creating a better future rather than continually attempting to fix or perfect the past. The Truer Self forgives the errant of the past and works with receiving the powerful of the future. '
Your Truer Self activates and utilizes the generating and sustaining energies of conscious reality creation with an eye that is more upon what they are about to create more than upon what they have already created. In this sensing, this Self works with trust, gratitude, happiness, and value (the generating energies of reality creation) to build bridges to what lies at and beyond their horizons. They are visionaries; they look forward more than backward. They work with the sustaining energies (discipline, responsibility, intimacy, and love) to empower the present and the future rather than to justify the past.
That is to say, this powerful and beautiful Self within you asks, "Where am I going?" more often than they ask, "Where have I been?" That Self asks, "Where will this lead me?" more than, "What will this get me?"
Find these ingredients in you and you begin to see the hints and clues that your Truer Self is ready to find you.
Consciousness and Conscience with Dignity: Everyone has a sense of their consciousness. We call that awareness the Self-I as opposed to the Ego-I. Each person has a conscience.
That "little voice in your head" that is mistakenly called your Higher Self by some, we would suggest, is actually your conscience. Too often it is born of guilt or fear; too often it is born of duty and obligation.
Why do you get up and get about the work of the day? With a conscience of guilt or fear, that "little voice" offers threats and warnings about the dire consequences of not getting up and getting on with your day. With a conscience of duty and obligations, that "little voice" speaks of endless lists of things to do.
Yet, there is a different voice. We would suggest, there is consciousness and a conscience born of and based on dignity ... upon your dignity.
The base of your personal dignity is found within your sense of valuing yourself for who you have become and for who you are about to be. It is found within the strength of your character and integrity and in the presence of your Soul and Spirit. It is formed in your sense of freedom.
That "little voice," when based on dignity, encourages you to get up and be about your day because you are a valuable person with much to explore and offer this day. It entreats you with a remembrance of an embrace of Soul and Spirit and of the wonder of freedom. And you respond to that "little voice" with doing the right thing because it is the right thing. In this sensing, you respond with character and with integrity.
Your Truer Self is conscious of its dignity. Its conscience is born of and based upon that dignity. Find your dignity, and you are in pursuit of that not-so-elusive Truer Self.
Integrity: Admittedly so, integrity is a hard concept to fully understand. We would suggest that many within the consensus reality have used the word and the concept of integrity for less than admirable purposes. Many have used the idea of integrity to manipulate others.
Despite the twists and distortions that have come to the concept of integrity, we suggest it can be helpful to understand it as involving four ideas: 1) being spontaneously responsible for the impact you have; 2) thinking and feeling the full range of your emotions with intensity and humility; 3) becoming wise; and 4) having both personal and spiritual character.
People with integrity hold the space within themselves to hold every aspect of who they are. They hold a space for the beautiful within them. They also hold the space for the ugly within them.
In this sensing, a person who is unaware of their shadowy side lacks integrity. That is, a person who says such things as "I don’t have a negative bone in my body" lacks integrity because they do not have the space within them for their ugly side.
In the reverse, a person who says "There is nothing good about me; nothing at all" also lacks integrity because they do not hold the space for the beautiful in them.
The person with integrity says such things as, "I know I can be negative ... very negative. I also know that I have many wonderful strengths and powers. I have the potential for either the negative or the positive. I know this about me. And I can choose. Yes, I can choose the space from which I come. I choose the positive. I choose my power and strength."
Your Truer Self has integrity. You will discover more of your Truer Self as you explore your own integrity.
Making and Working Miracles: Your Truer Self doesn’t deserve more miracles than others do; it is not rewarded with more miracles. We would suggest, your Truer Self is capable of making and receiving miracles ... miracles available to anyone.
When we have talked of miracles makers, we have suggested that they have certain characteristics of personality ... they have a unique nature.
They are confident and conscious of their spirituality. The miracle maker uses success and failure and personal and spiritual crises to become strong and to transform. We would suggest, they do not use such as these to justify weakness or to explain their "specialness."
The miracle maker has the courage to craft their life filled with freedom, individuality, joy, and authority. That is to say, they look to utilize their strength and power ... their magic ... to make a life more than they look to these to make a living. In life, they look to supersede and surpass what has been, in search for what will be. They pursue the unfathomable with expectation and anticipation. They pursue the Unknown with hope.
As you seek these, you come closer to your Truer Self.
Seeking and Searching with Spirited Passion: Spirited passion includes such as these: Truth, Goodness, and Beauty; Creativity and Productivity; Awareness and Understanding; Meaning and Significance; Value and the Valuable; Wonder and Joy; and Spirituality.
As you ponder these words and the concepts contained within them – as you seek the experience of each – in the mystery and the secrets that unfold, you can reveal more of your Truer Self.
Gracious Generosity: This is a kind of giving that has little or nothing to do with giving to "give in" or to "give up." It has little or nothing to do with "giving away" or "giving in exchange." Gracious giving is both giving and receiving beyond guilt; it is loving beyond fear.
We would suggest that gracious giving – the giving that is a natural part of you and exalted in you–is giving of your being more than of your doing.
By this we mean that often you give of what you do and of what you have. For example, you give money, time, space (your spare room or garage), and skill. Such giving can be and so often is beautiful and touching. It can be an inspiration. Giving of what you have and do can be profoundly powerful, and it is necessary.
We would add that there is giving of what you are; there is giving of what you "be." In this sensing, you are not money, time, your spare room or garage. You are not your skill. You have these, but you are not these.
What are you? You are consciousness of love; you are caring and creative. You are a spiritual being. Gracious giving is giving of your love and caring; it is giving of your talent and creativity. It is giving of your spirit ... your Soul and Spirit. These are the stuffs of your beingness more than your doingness.
Your Truer Self knows the difference. As you come to sense that difference, you come to sense your Truer Self.
Transcendence: Certainly there are transcendent states within your reality. There are those moments marked with beauty and with ecstasy; there are those moments –those timeless and spaceless moments that can be eternal – that are sacred in the hallows of beauty, love, solitude, and enchantment. Your Truer Self knows such moments. And we would suggest, they also have a resonance or a radiance of being transcendent.
What does that mean? Perhaps the most elegant way to describe being transcendent is to say that such a person has a radiance about them that seems to say that they enjoy life and enjoy living it rich with love and caring. That radiance seems to say that such a person is intrigued by and seeks complexity and challenge in their life. And they seek it with wisdom and with spirituality. A transcendent person, we would suggest, is one who invests in themselves and in their future.
Beginning the search ...
Work with the components. Work with where these qualities are present and where they seem lacking; work with where they seem missing. As you acknowledge and augment the presence of these, your Truer Self can emerge more fully. As you bring more loving and more healing to what seems to lag or to be lacking, you can love and heal your Truer Self into participating more fully in your life.
Work with love. Remember, whereas it used to be that your growth was based on discipline, admonishment, fixing, and curing, your growth is now about more loving and more healing. It’s about changing more than about fixing; it’s about healing more than about curing. Work with love. You always do.
As we said when we began ... You are amazing; you are astounding. No matter how bad it gets, no matter how good it becomes, you always seek and search for love. No matter how obscured, encumbered, or entangled your quest becomes, it never ends. No matter how lost you appear to be, you keep searching to be found.
Yes, work with love ... always more love.
We close with the love we feel and hold for you.
With love and peace,
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